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Conversations with God June 29, 2008

I wanted to share a conversation that I just had with God because when I hear about how God is working in other’s lives it is always encouraging. Hopefully, this will be an encouragement to you. I would love for you to leave a message about how God is speaking in your life and how you have been blessed recently in the comments section so that I may be encouraged through you.

I have struggled my whole life with fully surrendering my life to God’s will because quite honestly I felt that once I did God would call me to give my life and kill me. I know that sounds crazy but I had to get to the point where I was okay with COMPLETELY trusting God’s will for me and to use me in the way that would most glorify Him. Tonight, I was praying that God would use me to glorify Him in EVERYTHING. That my life would be a living testimony to His love. I realized that I was at the point where I could surrender everything to Him. My desire is to have a long life filled with bringing glory to His name and raising a family who leaves a legacy of strong family units that glorify the Lord, but I know that God knows my purpose. His will is perfect.

After that, I literally felt cleansed and renewed and started to pray in another direction and I have never before felt God speaking to me so clearly. I have been reading this book that Guideposts published about the life of Abigail, wife of King David. The Lord used her many times to reveal His will to her husband ultimately for His glory and also for the glory of her husband. She spoke words to King David that God revealed to her not to bring glory to herself but the King. At this time during my prayer, I asked that God give me the words to speak to my husband to encourage him and turn his vision towards Christ and His work and purpose. I told Him that I would be still and listen for the words.

I felt Him leading me to list those things that I admired about my husband. I want to list those things here so that I may bring glory to my husband publicly for the gifts the Lord has blessed him with. In my conversation I told God the things that I love about my husband were his quick wit, and his discernment. I felt Him leading me to the fruit of the Spirit that Paul (my husband) demonstrates most in his life. My husband is full of goodness. When thinking of his goodness I think of his absolute standard of truth. My husband demands and speaks truth. Even the tiniest exaggeration or minute detail he will call into question if it is not truth. Sometimes, this is hard for me as a wife when his answers are truth and hard to hear. I do not feel that it is coincidence that my husband is named Paul. When I think of Paul in the bible I think of a man that was not afraid to proclaim truth. My husband has done this many times. Most recently, I overheard him on the phone speaking hard truth to a friend in love, encouraging him to search the scriptures for what Christ would have him to do. I love this about my husband. I received conformation that God spoke that encouragement to me when I shared this with my husband. I wanted him to know that God loves this about his spirit. He said it was what he needed to hear.

I have never felt closer to God than this evening and I hope that this encourages you to simply ask God to reveal to you how your words can bless or encourage someone today. As women, our words are can be a blessing or a curse. We can uplift or tear down. I know this the hard way as my tongue has torn others down many a time. Join me on this journey of prayer to God for how we can use our powerful tongues to edify the body of Christ!


Psalms 1:2-4 March 1, 2008

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Instead you thrill to God’s Word, you chew on Scripture day and night. You’re a tree replanted in Eden, bearing fresh fruit every month, Never dropping a leaf, always in blossom.
(Pslams 1:2-4-The Message)
I was reading this morning Psalms 1:2-4 and the imagery of this verse jumped out at me. I am to be a tree, firmly rooted in the soil of God’s Word. The streams might rush around me, and the wind might shake my branches but if I am firm in Christ I will never drop a leaf and bear fresh fruit- always in blossom.
Of course, even the word blossom puts the image of a cherry blossom in my head and to me it is such a thing of beauty that it humbles me to think that only God can produce such beauty in my life. Apart from Him, I am nothing. I can not fabricate fruit or beautiful blossoms. This reminds me of the verse John 15:5 where it talks about abiding in Christ to bear much fruit.
I am going to be working on a piece of art that represents this for me but until it is finished I wanted to share this picture of a “tree woman” with you. Being a visual person, it is comforting for me to picture myself as a tree rooted in Christ and exciting to picture the fruit that bursts forth as a result of that soil!

The Fruit of the Spirit: Love February 18, 2008

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I am going through the book, Naked Fruit by Elisa Morgan for the second time. This morning I was reading about love and I thought it would make an appropriate post since, for many, the stardust from Valentine’s day still hangs in the air. In Naked Fruit, Elisa likened love to the fruit of grapes,
“The quality of a grape is directly related to its host vine. Grapes abide in their vine. Detached from their source, they wither. Grapes offer an example of commitment through the easy and hard times of life. In fact, vine growers report that the sweetest grapes come from the most stressed vines.”
I would never have thought that I would have a problem loving people. I was the child who would cry for the cartoons that got anvils dropped on them, and who made friends with all the underdogs in school. As a women, I figured the love of a husband or child would come naturally and I would say in most situations, it does. There are times; however, when circumstances and people and my own selfishness make it very hard to love. When I am tired, I notice my ability to express love is lessened. I am quicker to temper, or snap out a phrase that should come lovingly from my lips. And when my husband displays a pet peeve of mine for the umpteenth time, all loving thoughts for him can flee. Or when my sweet daughter cries out in the night, the selfishness of my tiredness can keep me firmly lying in my bed.
It is in these tough times that I will often grit my teeth and set myself resolutely on loving them. Unfortunately, my effort is apparent and does not come across as loving or unconditional.
This is where Elisa really challenges me, “Think how you might be ‘working up your own love’ for this person rather than allowing Jesus to love them through you. What does such effort produce in you? Or as Dr. Phil says, ‘How’s that working for you?’ How can you shift the source of your love from yourself to God by letting Jesus love that person through you?”
An interesting thought. How often to I bow my head in prayer and ask God to love through me? When I am catching up with a friend do I ask Jesus, “what does she need to hear to feel loved by You?”
This week I am going to be working on letting Christ love through me. I hope that you will join me as well.
Afterall, “all you need is love. Do Do Do Do Do, all you need is love:P”